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GIF from In the Woods

Here is the 10th "video" for Black Cloud. It’s a moving picture book, aka a series of animated GIFs, that I made using NewHive.

For the full-screen version, go here.

Special thanks to Carabella Sands and Scott McClanahan for the help, and Heiko Julien, Matt Margo, Sean H. Doyle, Barclay Montrose, Juliana Grace, the Holler Boys, and vomt for the music.

It was run as the very last Sunday Service on HTMLGIANT, and is currently making the entire HTMLGIANT site sound of crickets, wind in the trees, and light road noise.

RIP HTMLGIANT :(

A couple things…
Ryan C. Bradford asked me which scene from a movie troubled me the most. He also said some nice things about me, and Black Cloud. Look out for his first book, Horror Business, early next year.
My friend Katelan Foisy does rituals for each full moon at Catland in Brooklyn. She made a video for the last one, and featured some footage from two Black Cloud videos in it. Stills of the video (above) were taken at the ceremony by Amanda Nadal.
She also made this music video for the Cold & Lovely; I’m in it. 
I will be reading next Saturday (the 25th) in Indianapolis with Chloe Caldwell, Mira Gonzalez, Elizabeth Ellen, and Chelsea Martin on their “Fuck, Marry, Kill: The Women of Short Flight/Long Drive” tour AND I AM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT.

A couple things…

Anonymous:
Hi Juliet, I want to ask you a question, please don't be afraid of the anonymity. Until recently I would have considered myself a feminist through and through. However, due to recent similar events concerning sexual offences in my community (not NYC), I have found myself in some thick and unpredictable ideolistic soup where I would find it hard to identify as such anymore as I don't support vigilantism but I don't have a big voice to speak up and it doesn't make a difference. What do you think?

I think it is stupid to not identify as a feminist. Being a feminist seems incredibly basic to not being a shitty person. 

I hear what you were saying, though. I’ve often thought things along the lines of “I am not that kind of feminist.” Which makes me sad, because, like… Who said that all feminists have to agree on everything? Who said that disagreeing with someone on some point automatically makes them a misogynist? This line of thinking is completely insane, to me. 

I have an extremely difficult time keeping my mouth shut. This is something that has been both an asset and a detriment to me for my whole life. It is idealistic of me to think this (the world could stand a touch more idealism, tho, imo), but I do think that speaking up, even and maybe especially if you have a tiny voice, can make a meaningful difference. Unfortunately, no one likes hearing from a dissenting voice, no matter the clarity or sense that it speaks from— so when speaking up, know you will face repercussions.

'risky and provocative women writers'

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fast-machine:

i neglected to mention, the anthology from which my story was pulled was to be an anthology of ‘RISKY AND PROVOCATIVE WOMEN WRITERS.’

i don’t think they wanted ‘risky’or‘provocative’ women writers. i’m not sure they understand the meaning of either word.

a friend of mine told me the morning my essay went up on Hobart that a prominent woman writer (not one included in this anthology, i.e.notroxane) known for her writings about women and feminism, had initially linked to my essay and said something along the lines of, “e.e. has some interesting points here.” or maybe she said “interesting arguments.” at any rate, she said something that wasn’t 100% condemning. a couple hours later the same friend told me this woman had deleted her tweet linking to my essay. my friend said something like, “[this female writer] got into trouble, as she always does, as her “supporters” are so intense and possessive of her.”

so what does this mean? are we writers politicians now? catering to our ‘supporters’ or ‘fans’? afraid of open, honest dialogue and discussion? afraid to say anything new, that might not be easily swallowed or digested by our followers?

i find this very depressing. and another reason i’m neither ‘an essayist’ nor on twitter or fb. the second you become fearful of offending a fan or follower or even another writer who is a friend, you have lost the ability to think and to speak freely. you are no longer independent. you are no longer a leader. you have lost your courage. and my respect.

I love EE. 

thatlitsite:

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I don’t write book reviews. Personally, I find them to be more arbitrary than truly critical, and therefore pointless to read. What is considered ‘good literature’ is ultimately subjective, and people will willingly choose to gloss over good and bad elements of a book depending on their perspective and mood for that day. It’s not a meaningless craft, but—in my opinion—a fairly redundant one.

With that being said, I finished Scott McClanahan’s Hill William this morning and, in spite of all that, it made me want to write a book review. And as I write this review, I’m going to try my best to remain as on the nose as  possible. Now keeping all of that in mind, Hill William is one hell of a book.

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fast-machine:

Wed, Oct 22 – Bloomington, IN –EXCESS, 8-10 pm, w/ Jordan Castro (114 ½ Grant Street) https://www.facebook.com/excessbloomington
 Thurs, Oct 23 – St. Paul, MN – The Turf Club (in the basement, AKA The Clown Lounge), 5-7 pm
 Friday, Oct 24 – Northwestern, University Hall 102, 6 pm
 Saturday, Oct 25 – Indianapolis, IN – General Public Collective, 7 pm, w/ Jordan Castro, Scott McClanahan, Juliet Escoria
 Sunday, Oct 26 – Champaign, IL – Exile on Main Street, 4:30 pm, BYOB
 Monday, Oct 27 – Ann Arbor, MI – Literati Bookstore, 7pm
 Tuesday, Oct 28 – OBERLIN College, Cat in the Cream, http://www.oberlin.edu/bowling/cat.html, 7:30 pm w/ Jessica Tolbert
 Wed, Oct 29 - Toronto – Type Books, 7 pm
 Thurs, Oct 30th – Montreal – Drawn&Quarterly Bookstore, 7 pm


This is happening. Oct. 25, so many bros! Gonna bro down hard. 
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fast-machine:

Wed, Oct 22 – Bloomington, IN –EXCESS, 8-10 pm, w/ Jordan Castro (114 ½ Grant Street) https://www.facebook.com/excessbloomington

 Thurs, Oct 23 – St. Paul, MN – The Turf Club (in the basement, AKA The Clown Lounge), 5-7 pm

 Friday, Oct 24 – Northwestern, University Hall 102, 6 pm

 Saturday, Oct 25 – Indianapolis, IN – General Public Collective, 7 pm, w/ Jordan Castro, Scott McClanahan, Juliet Escoria

 Sunday, Oct 26 – Champaign, IL – Exile on Main Street, 4:30 pm, BYOB

 Monday, Oct 27 – Ann Arbor, MI – Literati Bookstore, 7pm

 Tuesday, Oct 28 – OBERLIN College, Cat in the Cream, http://www.oberlin.edu/bowling/cat.html, 7:30 pm w/ Jessica Tolbert

 Wed, Oct 29 - Toronto – Type Books, 7 pm

 Thurs, Oct 30th – Montreal – Drawn&Quarterly Bookstore, 7 pm

This is happening. Oct. 25, so many bros! Gonna bro down hard. 

scottmcclanahan:

WOMEN BY CHLOE CALDWELL IS EASILY ONE OF MY FAVORITE BOOKS OF THE YEAR
"Sometimes I wonder what it is I could tell you about her from my job here to be done.  I am looking for a short cut—something I could say that would effortlessly untangle the ball of yarn I am trying to untangle here on these pages.  But that would be asking too much from you.  It wasn’t you who loved her, or thought you loved her.  I wonder what I could write that would help you to understand that it is profoundly easy to fall in love with an olive-skinned woman that touches you just so, and who has a tattoo of a quote from Orlando trailing down her back.  Show me your tattoo again, I’d say in bed.  She’d pull up the bottom of her shirt, and I’d trace my fingers over the cursive words by Virginia Woolf that read: Love, the poet said, is a woman’s whole existence.”
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scottmcclanahan:

WOMEN BY CHLOE CALDWELL IS EASILY ONE OF MY FAVORITE BOOKS OF THE YEAR

"Sometimes I wonder what it is I could tell you about her from my job here to be done.  I am looking for a short cut—something I could say that would effortlessly untangle the ball of yarn I am trying to untangle here on these pages.  But that would be asking too much from you.  It wasn’t you who loved her, or thought you loved her.  I wonder what I could write that would help you to understand that it is profoundly easy to fall in love with an olive-skinned woman that touches you just so, and who has a tattoo of a quote from Orlando trailing down her back.  Show me your tattoo again, I’d say in bed.  She’d pull up the bottom of her shirt, and I’d trace my fingers over the cursive words by Virginia Woolf that read: Love, the poet said, is a woman’s whole existence.”

I will be reading at the Savannah College of Art and Design in Atlanta this Thursday, October 9th. 

I will be reading at the Savannah College of Art and Design in Atlanta this Thursday, October 9th. 

Last night, my husband was messaged by a person who told him to unfriend someone because they were a “predator.”

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Scott posted the screenshot on Facebook because he thought it was ridiculous and invasive and it pissed him off.

The person then posted in Alt Lit Gossip, saying that Scott and anyone who commented on the post was a rape sympathizer. (The post was removed.)

Scott got angry. A lot of other people got angry, too. A lot of these people — my husband included — were victims of sexual abuse and/or rape themselves. 

One poet told Scott him that he was “shaming the victim” by posting this (funny, considering “the victim” was never mentioned). They later blocked Scott (and me too, which seemed odd considering I hadn’t said anything and had also gone out of my way to help this poet in the past in a couple different ways, but whatever) and Tweeted this:

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Other tweets by other people followed:

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Feel like it should be unnecessary to point this out, but apparently it’s not…

1. You are “shaming the victim” of a past sexual assault/rape by bullying them because they are not responding the way you want them to.

2. Yes, what you are doing is indeed bullying.

3. “Friendship” on Facebook is hardly support. Personally, I know maybe 30% of my Facebook friends. The rest could be murderers, for all I know. They mean nothing to me. Facebook friendship is meaningless. I’m sorry you grew up so attached to the internet that you cannot distinguish this?

Just curious… What would Scott have to do to earn Dianna Dragonetti’s fascist little crew’s support? He already wrote a novel detailing his rape and the behaviors that resulted from it. I thought all you had to do was write an essay or Tumblr post? Maybe a novel is too long and hard to read? Maybe Gawker needs to write an article about him? Maybe it only counts if the rapist is Facebook friends with people that you are Facebook friends with. Maybe Scott needs to say that he no longer identifies as a man. 

—-

A couple days ago I, completely confused by everything that was going on on the internet, decided to email Sophia Katz’s original essay to a couple of my IRL friends who have nothing to do with alt lit.

I asked them: What do you think of this?

They told me things like:

It was hard to get through. It reminded me of when I was 18 and (their own experience of coerced sexual assault). 

It made my heart hurt for her.

It made me glad I’ve never been so down and out financially that I was in a situation like this.

etc. 

Then I asked: Is this rape?

One friend said, yes, it was. Another said she wasn’t sure. We talked about why and why not. 

Then we discussed why it was bad to discuss what the author could have done differently (“She’s probably already thought about it enough as is.” “It isn’t fair to do this because you never know how you might act in a situation like this— you may surprise yourself with how complicit you may be because your body and mind can shut down. “) We talked about why it was good to discuss what the author could have done differently (“It could give someone who finds themselves in a similar situation the tools to respond in a way that brings them to less harm.”) Then we talked about how terrible it was that ALL of us had something similar happen to us. At how sad it was that this scenario was commonplace. At how badly young people and older people needed to have a serious conversation about consent. 

Our opinions varied some, but as a whole we were coming from the same place. It was refreshing, and it made me feel a whole lot less confused about how this whole thing got started in the first place.

But it made me a lot sadder to think about what this had spun into. People telling people how to feel. People bullying people online. People sticking up for one victim at the expense of another. People who want essentially the same thing attacking each other, telling people that they’re terrible, that they’re misogynists, bad feminists, rape sympathizers. Dozens of men — many of them my friends — being accused of being sexual predators or rapists, with the accusations oftentimes being based on little or nothing. Dozens of other men afraid that they would be accused of something, simply for having sex or making out or having e-flirtations with a female writer in the community. People delighting in the fall of other people, seemingly happy to exploit their status of victim in order to help out their “personal brand.”

I don’t know what the solution is, all I know is this isn’t it. 

___

EDIT: 

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EDIT #2:

Some people have expressed concern about this sentence: Maybe Scott needs to say that he no longer identifies as a man.

To clarify: That sentence was a disparaging remark about people who have publicly admitted that they have changed pronoun preference solely as social commentary, which seems extremely detrimental to the aim of transgender people. I would never want to discredit the transgender movement, transgender people, etc. That transition seems hard as shit and I have a lot of respect and empathy for those who have that as a part of their experience. 

Guess it also has something to do with society’s habit of ignoring male sexual abuse/rape. Very few Hill William reviews mentioned this part of the book, which seems troubling.

Carabella Sands came to visit last week. We went into the forest so I could get some footage for a project I’m working on. I had bought these cheap Halloween robes for us to wear. I was worried they’d look as shitty as they were on camera. I didn’t need to worry. The robes didn’t look cheap. They glowed.

I lived in NYC for three years because I thought it would be a good idea to do so if I wanted to be a writer. I met lots of cool people and went to lots of cool events and places, etc. while I was there. I also wrote a total of five decent stories in the 3-year span. 

The work I’ve done in my childhood bedroom and in Beckley, WV has far surpassed the work I did in NYC, in terms of quantity, quality, and “coolness.” 

That New New In Lit: September | Bookish | Impose Magazine

Jacob Kaplan talks about my essay up at Hobart, along with work by Chelsea Hodson, Melissa Broder, Gene Morgan, Blake Butler, Ben Lerner, etc. etc. etc.

lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
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lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
iPod touch
f/2.4
1/160th
3mm
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lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
Reblogged from altlitgossip
lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
iPod touch
f/2.4
1/30th
3mm
Reblogged from altlitgossip
lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
Reblogged from altlitgossip
lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
iPod touch
f/2.4
1/120th
3mm
Reblogged from altlitgossip
lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
f/2.4
1/30th
3mm
Reblogged from altlitgossip
lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
iPod touch
f/2.4
1/138th
3mm
Reblogged from altlitgossip
lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 
here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:
women by chloe caldwell
bad blood by luna miguel
illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 
the blue hour by karina briski
bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti
anaconda by nicki minaj
excavation by wendy c. ortiz
takahe by stacey teague
pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander
bunny collective founded by samantha conlon
the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch
six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson
sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete
beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles
true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria
i am here by ashley opheim
& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos
Reblogged from altlitgossip

lk-shaw:

shout out to my main bitches and my side bitches 

here are some recommendations for things i have enjoyed recently:

women by chloe caldwell

bad blood by luna miguel

illuminati girl gang edited by gabby bess 

the blue hour by karina briski

bushwick review edited by kristen felicetti

anaconda by nicki minaj

excavation by wendy c. ortiz

takahe by stacey teague

pressure, titanium & bone by sarah jean alexander

bunny collective founded by samantha conlon

the chronology of water by lidia yuknavitch

six dead dogs by rachael lee nelson

sadmess & why-fi by ana carrete

beyonce at the vma’s by beyonce knowles

true life: i married scott mcclanahan by juliet escoria

i am here by ashley opheim

& the female fear by stephanie georgopulos